Current-sies

For roughly the past three weeks, (most notably on Sundays during Church) i’ve been prodded with the idea of becoming a counselor of some sort. Whatever the reason, the word “counseling” continuously beats in my mind at random and with no conscious effort. It just happens. This peculiarity coupled with a seemingly growing sort of discontentment or rather, desire for something more satisfying, in my life relating to relationships and my own needs has provoked my thoughts. With my goal of applying to school for the spring semester for Computer Science (something I believe I will enjoy in some form) I start to rethink my original plan. Is this God’s way of trying to tell me what he’d like? I certainly would love counseling and helping people, since those are qualities in which i’m adept.

Though, after all my wanting for God to direct me I also do have my reserves about making such a decision, my fears, my insecurities and what I think I should be or have now to accept that path. Such second- guessings are simultaneously a way, I feel, that proves this is something I should most definitely pursue. That’s what has been tickling my brain.

Then, there is always of course, my drums, my music. Participating in the church worship band has been wonderful for me insofar as to give me opportunities to play and practice more. Being behind the kit is probably the best way I worship. I enjoy being able to put my skills to work and create something personal yet also cumulative to bring glory to God. I’ve alos been doing more musically outside of church (and my comfort zone, which is quite small) with some of the other members on the worship team. Working on songs apart from Sunday-songs has been great. Being with people who are more or just a little less excited as me to work on music is encouraging and motivating.

My last current passion or dabbling (mostly in thought, less in practice) has been drawing. I’ve been feeling inspired and excited to make myself a better ‘artist’. I’ve never had formal training but I believe it’s something I could do for leisure and get a lot out of personally.

This is where most my thoughts are currently. It’s nice, being excited and feeling I have possibilities for a change. Thank you, Jesus.